Dance as a space to safely explore our sensual and sexual nature: a personal story

By Lynne Macintyre: a dancer

 

I’ve undertaken an exciting and life-affirming exploration over the last half a year. It’s one of those journeys that didn’t require a passport. In fact, I never consciously chose the direction I was going. I simply decided to follow the prompts of life, to follow my truth as guided by my body.

On this very personal journey of discovery, I started growing, healing, opening and uncovering more and more of myself in the process of Dancing Consciously. What I mean by this is the following: imagine dancing like no one’s watching, with a bunch of other people doing the same thing around you. The only rules are: no talking, because the aim is to step out of the thinking mind and into a deeper awareness of what we feel in our bodies. Everything we feel is welcome. Moving consciously and freely, aware of what needs to be expressed in each moment, we allow our feelings to move through our bodies. We gather in a safe space, side by side with people who are in the process of finding their own medicine through dance. *

One of the inevitable results of beginning to dance consciously was finally being able to release my fears and doubts. I was finally able to step into connection with others, especially humans of the opposite sex – and even more so when there was an attraction, which was very difficult before. Coming from a place of being fully me, glorious and vulnerable, I let myself be completely seen. I allowed myself to feel the fears and step up, regardless of the risks of feeling rejected, shameful, awkward or overwhelmed.

One of the inevitable results of beginning to dance consciously was finally being able to release my fears and doubts. I was finally able to step into connection with others, especially humans of the opposite sex – and even more so when there was an attraction, which was very difficult before. Coming from a place of being fully me, glorious and vulnerable, I let myself be completely seen. I allowed myself to feel the fears and step up, regardless of the risks of feeling rejected, shameful, awkward or overwhelmed.

I learned that it was okay, true, natural, necessary and beautiful to allow sensuality and the erotic into my interactions. I vowed to stay true to my body in the dance and in doing so I have constantly been blown away by the richness of how I experience myself in relation to others. 

I believe that we all carry within us the duality of masculine and feminine. By dancing consciously, I experienced a deep healing as the two could meet inside of me and outside of me. I see this as the ultimate wholeness. I am grateful for being met in my intensity and my fullness with both men and women. 

So far this journey has been incredibly beautiful, but by no means a smooth ride. The ripples have been felt in all the areas of my life. I’ve had to take a long hard look at my boundaries, while being mindful of others’ boundaries. My relationships have been shifting and I’ve fallen in love more deeply than I knew was possible. Daily I have felt as if my heart is being stretched open, sometimes to the point of breaking. I’ve had to face feelings I’ve been avoiding all my life. 

One of the most powerful lessons I’ve learnt over the past six months has been surrender. I’ve realised that the more I can surrender to my partner, to the dance and to life, the more things flow, the more magic, pleasure, flight and beauty emerges. 

When my dance and my life are informed and infused with my own sexual energy, I feel truly alive.  I work from my centre, from what I believe is my true authentic self.  From my experience, sexuality is the gateway to more self-knowledge. I am my favourite mystery, and to me there is no greater goal than my own evolution, and ultimately my most direct line to Spirit/God/dess/The Universe, my own Divinity. I feel more – energetically, intuitively and emotionally. I can help others allow and access their own sensuality and sexuality and their ability to feel. For now, I am unashamedly following the thread of every attraction and curiosity I encounter and I am fully committed to going with my dance. 

*There are a few different modalities to choose from in Cape Town that are all in wonderful support of self knowledge, healing, truth, beauty, freedom and love. Some of these are Biodanza, 5Rhythms, Bliss Dance, Movement Medicine, Dancing Freedom, and Voice Movement Therapy. 

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Image credit: Siknature Photography/ JuliArtCult. Check out her website here, and her Instagram account here

 

 

 

 

 

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